It's been a trying week. I think the devil's been after me. He knows I'm leaning more and more toward God every day, and I'm getting closer and closer to my weight loss goal every day as well. This past week has been very busy, and we actually talked about "busyness" in our Bible Study last night. So often the devil uses "busyness" to distract us, to frustrate us, to tire us, to try to keep us away from God. To prepare for my Bible Study, there are four lessons a week that I must complete and study. So, I have quiet time with God every single day now. Bible Study on Monday, Blog and reflection on Tuesday, Bible Class on Wednesday, Bible Study lessons on Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, as well as church service twice on Sunday. Of course the devil would be hot on my tail, trying to distract me, to use my weaknesses, such as my dependence on food to pull me away from God.
It's not been the ideal week...I didn't lose any weight this past week. But, that's okay because I remembered the words I read in "Made to Crave". "Define your week by obedience, not by a number on the scale." I didn't overeat this week. I exercised according to my normal schedule. I felt lighter than the week before. I never ate in secret or out of frustration or anger. I never ran to food instead of God. And, before I got on the scale, I thought I had a successful, God-pleasing week. This is a series of questions that Lysa TerKeurst urges her readers to answer after a weigh-in such as mine. By focusing on the positive (my obedience on my journey), the negative (the number on the scale not decreasing) was overshadowed. I just figure I'm gaining muscle or retaining water, and next weigh-in, the number will drop!
Saturday got off to a rocky start, just because "plans" are wired into my brain, and when they don't go as expected, it throws off my entire ability to function. It's kind of ridiculous, and well, that's part of my journey, too...I'm working on it! After I got over that meltdown, Justin and I got out and went on an hour-long bike ride around the bay. It was fantastic! I love the fact that we no longer spend our Saturdays laying around watching TV like we once did. Then, Sunday, I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I managed to make it through the day without hurting anyone, but man, was I glad when bedtime rolled around. I suppose we all have our days. I'm just thankful that God lets me start over every 24 hours!
This rough week just goes to show that they all can't be perfect. No matter how much I rely on God, the devil is still working on me, too. I just refuse to give up on this journey. God has been patient with me through all of my struggles, so I owe Him patience in return. He's never given up on me, so I can't give up on allowing Him to lead me to victory!
I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. (Psalm 40:1-2)
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