Well, I've been on my journey for a month now. I've been so determined that I've gone outside my comfort zone many times and allowed myself to be the odd one out because I know my real reward is victory. And, victory will not come without hard work and perseverance. It's a mindset I have to allow myself to take on because there is no magic pill, and there never will be. I have to wake up and dedicate myself to changing my own life every single day, even when it's hard. Oh, how I long to put this struggle behind me.
It's a bit depressing to realize how much I've depended on food in the past. If I had a rough day at work, I'd just swing through Mickey D's and Super Size it! It was my reward for dealing with stressful situations, but it was only a temporary reward. Last week was a tough one. Just when I thought I'd endured all the stress I could handle, more was piled on my shoulders. I really feel like God was testing me, almost asking me, "How much do you crave me? I want to help you. Choose me instead!" I'm feeling more confident and empowered this week, as I realize that not once during that stressful week did I turn to food to cure what ailed me (I surely wanted to though). I simply breathed through it, prayed through it, cried through it, and by God's grace, I survived. It was a week that needed to happen. I needed to know how strong I could be and I needed to stand up for myself against the food that has always stood in the way of my happiness.
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. (1 Corinthians 10:13)
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