Day 162...

I took a seven week hiatus from the blog. I didn't exactly know I was going to do it until life just made it necessary. The first thing that pulled me away was my best friend's baby shower. As the best friend, I have been looking forward to throwing this baby shower for a very long time. My best friend and I have been friends since we were 15 years old. There was no way I could let her down and throw a less-than-epic shower. So, I've been planning this thing since I found out she had a baby on the way at Christmas last year. It took a great deal of time for all of my ideas to come together and for my vision to appear. To make this jungle safari baby shower happen, I had to give something up, especially since I was making the vast majority of the decorations.

The baby shower preparation took a great deal of my time and energy for the entire month of May. The fact that I was able to deal with the stress and continue to lose weight was quite an accomplishment for me. By the end of May, I had lost a total of 39 pounds. Being able to handle stressful situations without turning to food is my biggest struggle. Somehow, over the passing months, God hasn't taken away that struggle but has equipped me to deal with it. That is something that can only come from the grace of God. As the days passed and the to-do's were checked off of my list one-by-one, I began to look forward to the day ahead. Mostly, I was just looking forward to the look on my friend's face when she walked into the room.

One of my greatest joys is to see someone smile as a result of something I've done. I wonder if God feels the same way. I also wonder if He's hurt when we don't see the beauty in what He's created for us. I think as we get busy in our lives, it is often so difficult to see the forest for the trees. As I got bogged down with tissue paper and animal crackers after long days of work, I tried to remember the reason I was pasting and counting. I was doing a tremendous favor for my friend, and nothing could compare to the joy I had knowing I was that special friend who had the privilege of throwing a party to celebrate her beautiful boy that had been wanted and prayed for for so long. God had answered our prayers, and I was the one that got to share it with her.

God's blessings are all around us. Every day, we must make the choice to see them and to appreciate them. I'm not the world's greatest at it myself, but I try harder and harder every day to do just that. Sometimes, all it takes is a short break from the worries of this world to put everything back in perspective. Life is short, and we only get one chance to get it right. Sometimes I succeed. Sometimes I fail. But, the most important thing is that I never give up and never stop trying to do what is right.
  
Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change. (James 1:17)